When the phone range before I left for work yesterday, I was pretty sure I already knew what it was going to be about. Phone calls that early in the morning never bode well! And I was right. My grandpa passed away in his sleep on Monday night, or early hours of Tuesday morning really. My emotions about it are a bit mixed, to be honest. It’s sad of course. Knowing I’ll never see him again really isn’t nice. But on the other hand, we’ve known it was coming for a while, and in many ways it’s a relief to no longer be waiting for the call. Also, towards the end he had no quality of life… he was sleeping a lot, on a tonne of painkillers that made him confused most of the time, and he hadn’t been able to eat or drink for days. And we can take some comfort in the fact that he lived to experience his 80th birthday (and was still doing relatively well at that point) – the milestone he kept saying he wanted to reach.
The funeral is on Monday, so I’m flying over on Sunday (alone this time – Jan has meetings on Monday and Tuesday that he can’t get out of), so things might be a bit quiet around here for the next few days. I’ll be back soon though.
RIP grandpa. Forever in our hearts.
Confuzzledom 
I’m very sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you’ll find comfort in happy memories of your Grandpa.
I’m so sorry, Bev. Even when you have been expecting such news for a while, it’s still not easy to take. I hope your time with your family is good for your heart as you celebrate his life together, and may the happy memories comfort you during this sad time. Hugs.
Thanks Sarah. He had a good life.
I’m sorry Bev. Over the weekend I’m sure you’ll have lots of chances to go over all the wonderful memories you have with him with your family. Huggles x
Thank you. People my grandma used to childmind have already been sharing stories, which is very comforting. It’s nice to know how loved he was.
Aw, my condolences, Bevchen… you must be experiencing loss and relief all mixed into one, but mainly sadness right now.
Maybe you already saw it, I posted a pic of my granddad yesterday, he died ten years ago, and we will miss that kind, cheerful man forever. Although his death was sudden and hence unexpected, it happened in the way he had always hoped it would. Small comforts…
xxS
I think if he had gone suddenly it would have been even harder to cope with. At least this way we had time to prepare. I’ve seen some lovely comments about him from people my grandma used to childmind, which is very comforting.
Aw, that is nice 🙂
So sorry for your loss. I understand your mixed emotions. I’m glad you’re able to attend the funeral and wish you safe travels.
Thank you. My boss is fantastic about letting us take time off in such circumstances.
So very sorry sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.
Thank you!
I’m so sorry for your loss, Bev and I echo what Sarah and Charlotte say above. Sending a big hug from over here.
Thank you x
I am very sad and sorry for your loss, Bev. I understand your feelings. In a situation like that phone calls can give you a heart attack. And I understand that it is a bit relieving to know that your Grandpa does not have to suffer anymore. But of course it is always hard to lose a beloved person. I am thinking of you and I am sending you lots of love! ❤
My condolences for your loss.
Thank you.
My deepest sympathy to you. Nice that he was able to make it to 80 as he wanted to, and clearly he had a very caring and loving family.
So sorry for your loss. Even when it’s expected, it’s still a very sad and difficult time.
So sorry to hear that. I’ll be thinking of you.
Thank you Polly.
So sorry to hear about your grandpa. Also understand your mixed emotions – my granny just died too, at the age of 92. And like your grandpa, had little to no quality of life towards the end. She would have hated to have gone on like that, probably the same as your granddad. Sorry again for your loss. Have a safe trip and take care of yourself.
Thank you – and sorry to hear about your Granny, too. It’s always difficult but I think it’s for the best. My grandma will miss him, but sitting around watching him die for weeks on end can’t exactly have been pleasant either x
Exactly. Try to remember the positive x
Sending you lots of positive vibes and very sorry for your loss x
Thank you. It means a lot.
I’m so so sorry for your loss! You’ll be in my thoughts and hopefully being surrounded by family soon will help even the tiniest amount! Many condolences and big hugs to you xx
Thank you. This means a lot.
so sorry to hear your sad news. Hope you can get together with your family and remember the happy times.x
Thank you for your kind words.
So sorry for your loss, Bev. Whether you’re expecting it or not, it’s always rough. Have a safe trip back home, and take care of yourself and your family.
Thank you Heather.
I’m very sorry to hear of your loss. Remember the good times. xoxo
Thanks
My condolences to you and your family.
I’m sorry to hear your sad news.
I’m sorry. Sending you big MM hugs.
Thank you. Much appreciated.