Yesterday we laid our boys to rest at the memorial for babies who were born too soon to be registered. They were cremated the day before – we asked for them to be laid in a single basket for the cremation, that way they’ll always be together. Then their ashes were placed in a heart-shaped wooden urn. We weren’t there for the cremation, but we saw the urn at the cemetery yesterday and it was beautiful.
The sun was shining brightly yesterday, a beautiful day to say goodbye. We read them Guess How Much I Love You – their first and last bedtime story – and told them we love them and we’ll come and visit them again. Hopefully at some point with their younger sibling. It was sad but nice. I’m glad we got to say goodbye and that we have a place where we know they are.
Afterwards, we walked into town and had a delicious hot chocolate at the chocolate café – much more fitting than raising a glass of something alcoholic, I think. We also lit the tea lights again in the evening.
“I miss you more than words can say
A part of me has torn away
A china heart will always break
A fracture to a twisted face
But things are gonna heal again
Eyes once blind will see again
I miss you more than words can say
I miss you more than words
Quickfade”
~ Feeder, Quickfade
🌟 Shine bright, tiny stars. We promise to never forget you. 🌟
Confuzzledom 
Still praying…What a shitty time for you, but I’m glad you found some comfort in the ceremony. It sounds beautiful. Love & prayers to you, Jan and your two stars.
Thank you lovely xx
I’m amazed at how you take this in stride. I’m not a mother myself, nor do I ever wish to be, but I know it must be hard to lose a child. Good on you for the strength you’ve found. I wish you all the best moving forward.
Thank you.
You never know how much you can cope with until you have no choice.
Thinking of you and sending hugs!! This is a beautiful post.
Thank you 🙂
That was really beautiful, but so sad. What a lovely poem. Thinking of you all.
It’s the chorus of a song. I like that it’s sad but also hopeful.
There are tears in my eyes reading this. What a beautiful memorial and tribute.
Thank you. It’s lovely that we got to do it, although it was sad.
I think hot chocolate is a lovely way to mark the occasion, finding something warm & sweet in a time of sadness. I’m so sorry for all you’ve gone through. I’m sure one day you’ll get everything you’re after. x
Thank you. We are still hopeful that it will work out next time.
It’s so lovely that you had the chance to say goodbye in this way. It’s so important.
xx
It really is important. Just having them acknowledged has helped me so much. We are lucky to have had this option xxx
So beautifully said, and so happy that you have a place like that. ❤
Thank you. We are so lucky to have somewhere to go – I wish everyone did.
I’m sat here sobbing. It’s not fair that you have to go through this. I’ll never forget your first sons either. x
Aww, sorry. I didn’t meant to make you cry – although I did when we were reading them the story xx
Oh that was a beautiful post. I am glad that your two boys have had this special honouring of them- they deserve it. Sending you all the best wishes and hugs to you and Jan.
Thank you lovely xxx
Aw good hell that is awful and I am so so, sorry.
Yes, this past month and half has been nothing but awful. It’s slowly getting better though.