I was nominated for this challenge a third time, this time by Irish Procrastinator (ages and ages ago!). She is currently taking a break from blogging, but hopefully she will see my contributions at some point.
The rules, once more:
1. Thank the person who nominated you – thank you kindly, my dear.
2. Post a quote for three consecutive days (1 quote for each day).
3. Nominate three bloggers each day.
Today’s quote is from the song “No Time to Sleep” by Tina Dico. I find it quite thought-provoking.
I’m breaking rule number three again and not nominating anybody but if you would like to do this (again) consider yourself nominated!
If you would like to listen to the song, here you are:
Isn’t it funny how certain songs seem to resonate with you at different times in your life? I’ve always been a fan of Fleetwood Mac, but recently a particular song has been playing over and over in my head. Or rather part of a song:
Well, I’ve been afraid of changing ‘Cause I’ve built my life around you But time makes you bolder Even children get older, and I’m getting older too
The song is, of course, Landslide and is sung by Stevie Nicks.
Well, I’ve been afraid of changing: While I haven’t actually been afraid to make changes as such – in fact, I’ve tried and tried to improve and become the best person I could possibly be in an attempt to prove to my boyfriend that I am worth taking a chance on. But very few of these changes have been for me – I won’t say none, because some have (like learning how to make friends. It hasn’t worked, in case you were wondering), but most of what I’ve been doing has been for our relationship – I’ve built my life around you.
But time makes you bolder, even children get older: One of my favourite people in the whole world had a baby last year. On 15 February, that baby will be a year old. And since he was born, nothing seems to have changed in my life. All my friend’s babies are growing up – my ex-boyfriend’s daughter will be 2 in May, and a second baby is now on the way. Sometimes, I don’t think much time has passed, but then I see how much all those tiny babies have changed and realise that it has, in fact, been literally years.
And I’m getting older too: I am getting older. There’s no two ways about it. I’m going to be 30 soon. The big 3-0!! How did that happen? I still remember panicking about turning 25. A whole qarter of a century! I couldn’t have imagined anything worse! But I survived… and now it doesn’t seem like 5 years ago. Each birthday since then has crept up on me, then I’ve woken up the next day feeling no different. 26 is not that much older than 25 after all, and is there really a difference between 27 and 26? Probably not. But the difference between 25 and 30 seems huge, and now I find myself wondering how did I end up here, like this?
I won’t be breaking up with my boyfriend just yet. For some reason, I still have hope (things have improved over the past year, after all), and we’ve also agreed to at least give it until he finishes his PhD, which will hopefully be in October (meaning he has a lot on his mind right now, even aside from whatever is going on between us). But stay or go, it’s time to make some changes. Not for our relationship. Not to become who I think Jan wants me to be. This time, I want to change for me. So that whether I stay or go, I can be happy within myself. The first step is to figure out what does make me happy.
Can the child within my heart rise above? Can I sail through the changing ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?
As I mentioned in Friday’s blog post, Jan and I went with some friends to see Tina Dico on Saturday. We went last year as wel and loved it, so as soon as I heard she was coming back to Karlsruhe this year I knew I had to have tickets, and she did not disappoint. Last year she had just one person with her, Helgi Jonsson (from Iceland). This year there was an entire band, which included Helgi on keyboard, trombone and harmonies. But she also performed some songs alone and one or two with just Helgi. And both the songs I had requested on Facebook were played, although I have no way of knowing whether she even saw my comment. She did ASK for requests for her Germany tour though, so I thought I might as well get mine in there. (In case anyone was wondering, I asked for One and Room With a View – the latter she actually played as a second encore, apparantly the first time she’s come out a second time throughout the entire tour. Or so she said). It was a great night and I thoroughly enjoyed it.
For those of you who don’t know who Tina Dico is, here’s a song for you. Enjoy!
Hails posted this as a note on Facebook and tagged me in it, so I decided to use it as today’s blog post. Yes, it’s another music meme.
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can’t use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It’s a lot harder than you think! Repost as “My Life According to (BAND NAME)”
Pick Your Artist: Idlewild
Are you a male or female? Queen of the troubled teens
Describe yourself: Younger than America
How do you feel: As if I hadn’t slept
Describe where you currently live: House alone
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Make another world
Your favourite form of transportation: When the ship comes in
Your best friends are: You and I are both away
Your favourite colour is: Actually it’s darkness
What’s the weather like: (The night will) bring you back to life
Favourite time of day: I’m happy to be here tonight
If your life was a T.V. show, what would it be called: Mistake Pageant
Your ideal Birthday Present would be: Tell me ten words
What is life to you: I don’t have the map
Your relationship: Pleasure and pain
Looking for: I understand it
Wouldn’t mind: A film for the future
Your fear: To be forgotten
What is the best advice you have to give: You just have to be who you are
If you could change your name it would be: Roseability
Thought for the Day: Listen to what you’ve got
How I would like to die: Safe and sound
Soul’s present condition: Theory of achievement
Biggest secret: It’ll take a long time
My motto: Forget to follow